Last night I went out with some great friends and had a wonderful time sharing laughs and food. I had a delicious salad with cranberries, walnuts, and blue cheese; zucchini sticks; and shrimp risotto... technically I guess I cheated. Vegetarians don't eat shrimp. It was only about 4 shrimp, but still, I ate them.
Tonight for dinner, I sautéed a vegetable medley of zucchini, eggplant, onions, garlic, spinach, and tomatoes. I served it on top of couscous and I sprinkled some feta cheese on top. It was OK. I REALLY missed meat today. I wished there were some chicken in this dish. I told my husband, "I don't know if I'll be able to do this vegetarian thing... people will be so disappointed in me." So I thought perhaps if anything, this whole thing would just be an experiment. If I can't cut it, I'm going to try to make it 30 days as a vegetarian and see where it goes from there.
Today I really felt like a drug addict. I know what it must feel like to really want something you shouldn't have. I feel disappointed in myself.
After 30 days, if I decide to eat meat again, I will only eat organic, free-range meat. And I won't be serving meat once a day like I used to, I will only eat it once in a while. My meals will not revolve around a meat dish, but will center around vegetables. After typing this paragraph I feel even more guilty. I'm writing compromises, as if I've already decided to give up.
I will try my best to be a vegetarian... and I have not given up yet.
Ok, you have to calm down. First, stop being so hard on yourself! No one will be disappointed in you, unless of course you've recently made some new friends at PETA. You are not going to be a better human being as a vegetarian, or a worse human being for not being a vegetarian. Also, if you choose to be a vegetarian, you need to supplement your mainly veggie diet with alternatives to meat that will keep you satified like Boca burgers or fake chicken nuggets. I've had them and I like them. You will not miss meat or chicken if you start using these products I promise you!
ReplyDeleteThanks my BFF!
ReplyDeletei didn't realize it before but shortening your goal from total veg to 30 days experiment is the same as giving up. cause you're totally waiting for day 30 now. "do or do not. there is no try."
ReplyDeleteTrue. But I'm not waiting for day 30, I'm going to see how I feel Day 30, and maybe I'll eat meat occasionally or maybe I wont. This whole thing was an experiment. It's my honest journey.
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